A long time coming....

 Yes, this blog has been a long time coming.  I think I have written this in my head numerous times since the first of the year.

So, I am here to answer two of your questions that I get weekly from you.  What happened to me?  And am I okay?  I will do what I can to answer  both without writing a book.

A LOT happened to me, and yes I am okay.  As you know I had some major health issues, and some that will never go away.  It started with a physical, believe it or not.  I was expecting that I may have high blood pressure and possibly cholesterol, but it appears it was much more then that.  My mammogram came back showing a lump, and for those that have been with me for years, know that this was not my first lumpectomy.

I also have a problem with lidocaine, a general anesthesia, that sent me into a full cardiac arrest in an outpatient procedure in 1990.   The hospital, (not my surgeon) required cardiac clearance for my lumpectomy.  This included and EKG, and Echocardiogram and a nuclear test.  (The first two I have had numerous times, but never a nuclear test to which I have always passed.)  Surgery was scheduled and as I was being taken to the OR, it came in I did not have cardia clearance.  I passed the EKG and Echo,  as I always had, but there was a major problem with my nuclear test.  I was then rerouted to a heart cath.  Long story short, the heart cath failed.  This left me with a lump in my breast and a major heart problem that all needed to be addressed right away.  This was the beginning of my story.

I ended up firing my cardiologist and so very grateful and blessed for the one I have today.  He took me on at the last minute.  We moved to another hospital and he preformed what most didn't think was possible.....a 4 hour heart cath and 5 stents.  The goal of course to fix everything without cracking my chest open.  This was successful, now onto breast surgery.  This too went fine and came back benign.  

Onto the next pressing problem, my legs.  The valves are shot in both (Years of high heels and pavement) and again, cannot be fixed because of my anesthesia problem.   However, there was a bigger problem, the blockage in my right leg that ran from my mid thigh all the way to my ankle, as in no blood flow.  How was this possible?  A bare trickle it appeared.  On the cat scan you see no blood flow at all.  How am I walking? How is it I don't have a cane?  Those questions remain today.  Again, long story short, this has led to 3 doctors and 4 failed heart caths as they have never seen anything like it and are unable to get through it.  Yes, I did loose the pulse in my foot completely at one point and there was an amputation discussion.

Meanwhile, they also found blockages in both sides of my neck.  Now unlike the other, this comes from smoking.  They were not as pressing as the other problems, or so we thought.  This is right up until I had a TIA or mini stroke, of all places in my cardiologist office during a routine test.  The artery in your neck branches off into one controlling your face and the other controlling your brain.  The blockage was in the one controlling my face.  The one controlling my brain....completely collapsed.  Off to emergency surgery of an endarterectomy on my neck.  And of course a cat scan.....which shows I have a brain aneurism....and while in ICU, Covid hits.  (I was released the next morning because of people dieing from the flu).

I was sent home to heal, thinking we have basically fixed about everything, and waiting to hear more about my brain aneurism.  Then laying on the sofa watching TV, a mini stroke hit.  It was if someone had drawn a line down my body and my whole right side for a moment in time went numb.  This they now knew was the brain aneurism.  The next problem....we are on lockdown for Covid.  So stay home do NOTHING and do not STRESS about anything while they find someone to take my case.  The one they found was in NC, my insurance would not cover it.  This turned into a 5 month wait, until they called and said they had the best neurosurgeon around to take my case and I was being scheduled for the following week.  Whooohoooo yay!  This is good news!  Wait a minute....what?  A brain surgeon?

Three trips into my brain to be exact, (two while I was awake) the first to look to see how to do this as it was deemed inoperable.  The second, the actual brain surgery, and the third to go in to see if the fix worked and would it hold.  I cannot express to you what this was like emotionally, but I'm sure you can guess.  So in the surgery, I was on the machine, taken off, and I went down.  I apparently clenched my teeth together and the knocked my teeth out with an intubation tube, breaking a bone in my mouth while doing so. Using lidocaine, (the one I am allergic to, because it was the lesser of two evils of the paddles or lidocaine to restart my heart.)  This gave me a heart attack the moment I hit ICU.  And....no one allowed in because of Covid.  I literally had someone drop me off at 4am for brain surgery, went through all of this, and was released the following day.

Prosthetic bone in my mouth and teeth fixed.  The worst has to be over....so I thought.  A year had passed time for my mammogram.  This time, another lump in the other breast....but this one came back as cancer.  The numbers were not exactly in my favor as far as it returning within 5 years.  I also lost my mother to breast cancer.  I went for a double mastectomy with implants.  This did not go well either.  There was also a tummy tuck to which I would not recommend to my worst enemy.  This was done because and I quote, "Because I had been through so much, and it would help my self-esteem."  This too, almost cost me my life.

My body rejected the silicone implants, one by one.  The incision for my tummy tuck (that was hip to hip up to my ribs) got infected right away.  Funny thing, all the meds, made me a type 2 diabetic, that no one seemed to notice, until I got an infection that wouldn't heal.  (Yes, this should have been addressed before ANY surgery.)  So, staff infection had to be cut out.  This left a one inch open incision, bandaged and stuck me in a body binder.  Home health care 3 days a week for an open wound that won't heal, and me pretty much immobile, for 8 MONTHS! Then staff infection in my stomach met the bacteria infection in my breasts and well...I  went sepsis.  Rescue squad and taken to MCV where I spent a week. Prior to this all of my hospital stays were overnight.

So in a nutshell I did 18 procedures in the span of 26 months, with an open wound that took 8 months to close.  I'm not going to lie, my life was hell.  I was on my own with minimal help.  My daughter could not deal with my medical problems and bailed.  I drove myself to doctors appointments, picked up my prescriptions with drains and all,  and cried daily in pain as I could not handle the pain pills.  I worked every day.  Know one expected me to recover, not even my medical team.  But I did.  Or at least to the best of my ability.  My heart problems, prescriptions and tests are now a way of life for me.

I am not or ever have been on disability.  However, I cannot pull the hours that I used to, particularly because my legs won't allow it.  I play that pain off well.  I still walk with no assistance and to look at me you would not know anything was ever wrong with me. (That is the new rumor, it couldn't have been that bad because I look fine.)  Well, you know for a fact that you are indeed BACK when the haters resurface.

During the healing time I kept up with my YouTube channel and all of my readings.  I had problems with my website that I just could not physically address.  So I was thrilled to rebuild my websites bigger and better this year.  I placed myself on a "Video" schedule to keep my audience and to rebuild my business.  Many of you have hung in there and stuck with me, and I love you for that and appreciate every single one of you.  But at the same turn, many gave up on me.  Not just my clients but friends and people I know treated me like I was contagious.  All of this changes a person, and I will say to the better.

I know longer stress over the small stuff.  I know now, they believe I have had 8 heart attacks since my twenties, and had been in every single hospital in my area over the years.  They all said it was stress....and it was all because I passed an EKG.  I have had heart problems all my life, no one looked even though all the symptoms were there.

All of this has changed me for the better.  And believe me when I say, I know who was there for me and who was not.  In an odd way, this was all an answer to a prayer.  That is a story for another day.  Right now the only thing I am guilty of is over doing things because I do feel like my old self.  I will eventually find the right pace.  Life goes on.  I believe I have been rebuilt for a reason, although I am not sure what that is.  But you know me, I indeed have projects I am working on!  And thanks for your support on my podcast!  I enjoy that too!

In case you're wondering I did NOT become a health nut.  I eat right, and still have some weight left to loose.  I have been smoke free for 4 years and right now I need to put more focus on my walking.  Thank you all for your support.  I'm sorry I kept you in the dark for so long.  I know you all got bits and pieces, but this pretty much covers it.  

Readings as usual.....main website is now JackieTomlin.com   As always, I LOVE HEARING FROM YOU!

Until next time....

Jackie

Jackie's horoscopes for August 2024

 MERCURY RETROGRADE AUGUST 5TH TO AUGUST 25TH

ARIES Mar 21 to April 19

 The month begins with a good business deal.  Expect good luck in abundance this month.  What you have been manifesting since spring comes in this month.  Everything you want is within your reach, there will be a celebration near the month's end.  Someone close to you will offer their assistance when you least expect it.  A Leo will play a role in your life this month.

TAURUS April 20 to May 20

The month begins with a celebration and getting things under control.  Take some time to manifest what you want.  Fear and worries leave as you reconnect with someone from your past.  Get ready for a fast past at the month's end.  News doors will open for you, make sure you walk through them.  Overall a busy month!  Many people will surround you this month.

GEMINI May 21 to June 20

The month begins with secrets being revealed.  Get ready for a fast pace this month and trust that you are being led to victory.  You are surrounded by a healing energy of both physical and emotional pain.  New opportunities will present themselves mid month.  You will get what you want but it will be in a form that you are not expecting.  A Capricorn and a Sagittarius will play a role this month.

CANCER June 21 to July 22

 The month begins with a disappointment turning to being a blessing in disguise.  Expect the signing of a legal document. The help that you need is on the way.  Expect many secrets to be revealed.  Someone close to you will offer their assistance to you.  A small wish will be granted.  There will be a new emotional path at the month's enc.  A Taurus and a Libra will play a role in your life this month.

LEO July 23 to August 22

 The month begins with a lesson well learned. Stop beating yourself up over a past decision.  Expect good luck in abundance so remain positive.  Expect sudden changes this month that will put you on the right path.  Continue to move forward.  If you are separated from someone or something it will be just temporary.  A Cancer will play a role in your life this month.

VIRGO (August 23 – Sept. 22)

 The month begins with you getting what you want.  There will be a lot of scattered energy surrounding you.  It appears that you are closing one door while another door will open for you.  Expect endings this month.  Good news will arrive mid month so remain positive.  Time for sudden changes and decisions at the month's end.  Many will surround you this month.

LIBRA (Sept 23 – Oct 22)

The month begins with getting what you want.  Be warned of someone using you.  There will be a lot of scattered energy around you.  Working on your self-esteem brings you good luck in abundance.  Dig for your patience regarding matters of the heart.  What you want will come in a form that you are not expecting.  A Capricorn will play a role in your life this month.

SCORPIO (Oct 23 – Nov.21)

  The month begins with a joyful outing.  Move forward and stop procrastinating.  Take the time to work on your self-esteem as fear and worries leave.  Expect good luck in abundance when you least expect it.  There will be a lesson will learned.  You are surrounded by a healing energy.  New doors will open for you a the month's end.  Many will surround you this month.

SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22 – Dec 21)

   The month begins with getting what you want but in a form your are not expecting.  Remain positive as there will be a lesson well learned.  Mid month brings in a new emotional path with the intensity in love.  There is a caution for you to slow down. Expect a new beginning at the month's end.  A Virgo, Cancer and Gemini will play a role in your life this month.

CAPRICORN (Dec 22-Jan 19)

   The month begins with good luck in abundance.  There will be a lesson well learned over decisions that you made in haste.  Everything you want is within reach and it's time to make decisions.  Secrets will be revealed in regards to business.  Remain positive as your temper may explode at the month's end.  A Cancer and Gemini will play a role in your life this month.

AQUARIUS (Jan 20 – Feb 18)

Your month begins with you getting what you want.  Expect sudden and quick changes.  What you want to happen will take place but not in the way you thought it would.  Your high drive for success will bring in a good business deal.  Good news arrives when you least expect it.  You will have to dig for your patience as secrets are revealed.  Another Aquarius and a Capricorn will play a role in your life this month.

PISCES (Feb 19 – Mar 20)

Your month begins with a lesson well learned.  Do not fear as you are on the right path, so trust where you are being led.  Relax, and take some down time.  Expect endings and new beginnings.  Continue to move forward as a disappointment will turn into a blessing in disguise.  You will get what you want but in a different form then you expected.  A Libra and an Aquarius will play a role in your life this month.

Jackie's Horoscopes for July 2024

 

ARIES Mar 21 to April 19

 The month begins with a lot of scattered energy surrounding you. Expect good luck in abundance and everything you want is now within reach.  Delays are in your favor. You will also have a high drive for success.  Expect to reunite with more then one person from your past at the month's end.  Another Aries will play a role in your life this month.

TAURUS April 20 to May 20

The month begins with you taking your power back. This is the end of an era for you.  More then one wish will be fulfilled and you are being led to total victory.  Be warned about your temper.  There will be the signing of a legal document towards the month's end.  Get the rest you need before further development.  A Leo will play a role in your life this month.

GEMINI May 21 to June 20

The month begins with a small wish being granted. The help you need is on the way.  Get ready for a fast pace.  Embrace the end of an era and a new beginning.  Expect major changes.  Secrets will be revealed.  Be warmed of being used by someone.  Everything you want is within reach.  An Aries and a Scorpio will play a role in your life this month.

CANCER June 21 to July 22

 The month begins with a new emotional path.  You will get what you want but it will come in a form that you are not expecting.  Someone close to you will offer their assistance in your time of need.  There will be an ending and a lesson well learned.  Continue to move forward.  An Aquarius and a Gemini will play a role in your life this month.

LEO July 23 to August 22

 The month begins with a strong new beginning.  Expect to reunite with someone from your past.  Expect sudden changes and you will get what you want.  You are in for good luck in abundance.  Remain positive as it is time for you to make decisions that you have been putting off.  A Capricorn will play a role in your life this month.

VIRGO (August 23 – Sept. 22)

 The month begins with a high drive for success.  Expect total victory.  Expect endings and new beginnings that will put you on the right path.  New doors will open for you, make sure you walk thru them.  Expect a lot of scattered energy around you.  Secrets will be revealed to you, continue to move forward.  A Scorpio will play a role in your life this month.

LIBRA (Sept 23 – Oct 22)

The month begins with sudden changes.  Be warned of your temper.  You are on the right path but it won't feel like it.  Expect new money to come in.  Expect intensity in love.  The help that you need is on the way.  Expect a new emotional path.  Trust where you are being led.  Stick with those that support you.  A  Cancer and a Scorpio will play a role in your life this month.

SCORPIO (Oct 23 – Nov.21)

  The month begins with digging for your patience.  Expect endings and a new beginning.  Delays are in your favor.   Remain positive as you will go through some major changes.  Expect to reunite with someone from the past.  You can expect to be separated from someone temporarily.  You will take your power back at the month's end.  A Pisces, Aquarius and Sagittarius will play a role in your life.

SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22 – Dec 21)

   The month begins with sudden changes and good luck in abundance.  Stop beating yourself up over past decisions.  You will have to dig for your patience with a family member.  Good news arrives when you least expect it.  Be warned of being used by someone.  Expect intensity in love.  You will reunite with someone from the past.  A Virgo, Capricorn and Sagittarius will play a role in your life this month.

CAPRICORN (Dec 22-Jan 19)

   The month begins with a lesson well learned.  Delays are in your favor.  Expect more then one outing this month as your social calendar fills.  Someone close to you will offer their help to you.  Expect a large lease and/or purchase mid month.  A disappointment will be a blessing in disguise.  An Aries and a Virgo will play a role in your life this month.

AQUARIUS (Jan 20 – Feb 18)

Your month begins with getting what you want.  Expect to take your power back this month.  There will be a new emotional path.  You will have a lot of scattered energy around you but trust where you are being led.  The help that you need is on the way.  Take the time to get things under control.  Many will surround you this month.

PISCES (Feb 19 – Mar 20)

Your month begins with intensity in love.  This may cause a lot of scattered energy around you.  Trust that you are on the right path.  A disappointment will be a blessing in disguise.  A small wish will be granted.  Delays are in your favor and will lead you to good luck in abundance.  A small wish will be granted at the month's end.  A Sagittarius and another Pisces will play a role in your life this month.

Digging Deeper Together - Jonah

 It is hard to believe that tonight we are into week 7 of our 8 week bible study! It has been absolutely amazing and I love watching our group grow! (That study has our group sessions, so if it is one you want to do at a later date, it is available to you.) All Things New is a study on Corinthians 2, and a great study to reconnect or get your relationship going with God.

I have the group set for video chat for our group discussions at no cost to you. You can choose to video or to chat. (We will get you on camera, because we are a FUN group!)

We are taking 2 weeks off and coming back with our second study of Jonah by Priscilla Shirer. 4 Chapters and 3 pages of a man swallowed by a fish......I have done this one before and you will enjoy every part of it! I am posting the trailer here. This one will begin July 15th and run for 7 weeks.

Our group is on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/groups/785256966999070

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Vb19...(link to the trailer.)

https://www.lifeway.com/en/product/jonah-bible-study-ebook-with-video-access-P005847873?fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAR1O67OTrXxc_b0K5Gmcu1qnkPC1rAeD9lQQa1hAOma16ne0BEB2E2Ar13U_aem_es-hCucDF5TtwsoGYzx5Aw(Link to the workbook)

We cannot wait to see you there!

Jackie

Jackie's horoscopes for June 2024

 

ARIES Mar 21 to April 19

 The month begins with a lesson well learned.  Expect to reunite with someone from your past.  You can also expect intensity in your love life mid month.  Be warned of your temper as someone is using you.  A small wish will be granted at the month's end.  Many will surround you this month.

TAURUS April 20 to May 20

The month begins with you being separated from someone or something.  This will be just temporary. The help that you need is on the way.  A disappointment will also turn out to be a blessing in disguise.  It is time to make decisions you have been putting off.   Expect good luck in abundance.  A Virgo and a Sagittarius will play a role in your life this month.

GEMINI May 21 to June 20

The month begins with reuniting with someone from your past.  There is a lot of scattered energy around you, but know you are on the right path.  You are taking your power back from being used by someone.  What you have been manifesting since the winter will come to pass this month.  A Capricorn, Virgo and Libra will play a role in your life this month.

CANCER June 21 to July 22

 The month begins with new doors are opening.  Expect confirmation in what you had suspected.  Delays are in your favor and you will get what you want.  There will be a lesson well learned.  Expect a good business deal.  The help that you need is on the way.  A disappointment will be a blessing in disguise. Confront liars when need be.  Many will surround you this month.

LEO July 23 to August 22

 The month begins with intensity in love.  There will also be a lesson well learned.  You will get what you want but it will be in a form you are not expecting.  Expect a high drive for success that will lead to a celebration.  Good news will arrive that you have been waiting on.  A small wish will be granted at the month's end.  A Taurus will play a role in your life this month..

VIRGO (August 23 – Sept. 22)

 The month begins with a fast pace.  Expect a new emotional path as you reunite with someone from the past. A lot of scattered energy will surround you as secrets are revealed.  Expect the signing of a legal document.  There will be a new beginning in love with a lot of intensity.  A Capricorn will play a role in your life this month.

LIBRA (Sept 23 – Oct 22)

The month begins with unexpected assistance from someone close to you. You will get what you want but in a form you are not suspecting. You are being led to total victory. There will be a lesson well learned.  It is time to move forward.  Expect sudden changes. A Sagittarius and a Scorpio will play a role in your life this month.

SCORPIO (Oct 23 – Nov.21)

  The month begins with  making decisions that you have been putting off for too long.  It is time to move forward and stop procrastinating. Scattered energy will surround you mid month as you are separated from someone or something temporarily.  You have a high drive for success so expect a fast pace. A Taurus, Gemini and Cancer will play a role in your life this month.

SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22 – Dec 21)

   The month begins with the help that you need is on the way.  Expect intensity in love as you heal from what that has done you wrong.  There will be unexpected scattered energy and a new emotional path over a lesson well learned. Expect new money and new opportunities.  You get what you want but in a form you are not expecting.  An Aquarius will play a role in your life this month.

CAPRICORN (Dec 22-Jan 19)

   The month begins with a new beginning but different then you thought it would be. Continue to move forward with no procrastinating and take back your power.  Expect a good business deal.  You are being led to total victory.  A trip out of state will being you new opportunities.  Continue to manifest.  A Scorpio and a Pisces will play a role in your life this month.

AQUARIUS (Jan 20 – Feb 18)

Your month begins with intensity in love and secrets being revealed.  Expect confirmation is what you suspected.  A small wish will be granted.  Mid month brings a new beginning and getting what you want. You have a high drive for success.  You will reunite with someone from our past at the month's end. A Virgo will play a role in your life this month.

PISCES (Feb 19 – Mar 20)

Your month begins with the help that you need is on the way, this will end your fear and worries.  A good business deal will lead to new beginnings. Expect sudden changes and remember your are getting things under control. You have a high drive for success and are surrounded by a healing energy.  A Gemini, Taurus and a Scorpio will play a role in your life this month.

Jackie's horoscopes for May 2024

 

ARIES Mar 21 to April 19

 The month begins with a celebration.  New doors are opening for you, so walk through them.  You are on the right path this month.  Embrace a new beginning.  You are surrounded by a healing energy as well.  A trip out of state will be planned.  Continue to move forward.  There is intensity in your love life at the month's end.  A Cancer will play role in your life this month.

TAURUS April 20 to May 20

The month begins with you moving forward from being used by someone.  Your drive for success is high, and you can expect some major changes.  Be warned of your temper mid month.  A small wish will be granted.  You will get what you want but it will be in a form that you are not expecting.  An Aries will play a role in your life this month.

GEMINI May 21 to June 20

The month begins you making decisions that you have been putting off.  You are on the right path, however, you need to stop over thinking things.  Everything that you want is now within reach.  Stop beating yourself up over past decisions.  A live music venue could be just what you need. The help you need arrives at the month's end.  A Capricorn will play a role in your life this month.

CANCER June 21 to July 22

 The month begins with a good business deal.  A disappointment will turn into a blessing in disguise. Expect a new beginning mid month.  Continue to move forward.  Delays are in your favor as this is about taking back your power.  Expect intensity in love.  Their is a caution to slow down in all you do.  A Sagittarius and another Cancer will play a role in your life this month.

LEO July 23 to August 22

 The month begins with making plans for summer.  Expect a good business deal and stop beating yourself up.  Your high drive for success will lead you to w atyou want.  You are surrounded by a healinhg energy of both physical and emotional healing.    Dig for your patience and expect sudden changes at the month's end.  A Libra will play a role in your life this month.

VIRGO (August 23 – Sept. 22)

 The month begins with digging for your patience.  You will get what you want.  Stop beating yourself up.  It is time to separate yourself from someone or something that no longer serves a purpose.  Expect intensity in love and you're making summer plans.    Expect total victory in reuniting with someone from your past.  Be warned of someone working against you.  A Sagittarius and a Cancer will play a role in your life this month.

LIBRA (Sept 23 – Oct 22)

 The month begins with major changes that you may not be happy about.  Be warned of being used by someone.  A family member has your best interest at heart.  Everything you want is within reach.  It is time for you to get out and have some fun.  Take the time to make decisions at the month's end.  Many will surround you this month.

SCORPIO (Oct 23 – Nov.21)

  The month begins with  you reuniting with someone from your past.  Someone close to you will have you digging for your patience.  Rest mid month as the remainder of the month will e fast paced.    Continue to move forward with your summer plans.  Expect a large lease and/or purchase at the month's end.   A Virgo will play a role in your life this month.

SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22 – Dec 21)

   The month begins with a caution to slow down in all areas.  Expect secrets to be revealed. You will get what you want and expect new opportunities.  Your high drive for success will have you making some tough decisions.  Be warned of being used by someone near the month's end.  Remain positive with a lesson well learned.  You are heading to total victory.  You will be surrounded by many this month.

CAPRICORN (Dec 22-Jan 19)

   The month begins with very fast pace.  The help that you need will arrive.  Expect a small wish to be granted.  A disappointment mid month will be a blessing in disguise.  Continue to move forward and stop beating yourself up over past decisions.  Continue to make summer plans.  A Virgo and a Cancer will play a role in your life this month.

AQUARIUS (Jan 20 – Feb 18)

Your month begins with intensity in love.  Expect an unexpected outing.  Continue to move forward.  There will be a large lease and/or purchase.  Remember delays are in your favor and be warned of your temper.  Someone close to you will ask for your help at the month's end. A Gemini will play a role in your life this month.

PISCES (Feb 19 – Mar 20)

Your month begins with secrets being revealed.  Slow down in all that you do to prevent an injury.  Expect quick new beginnings.  Scattered energy surrounds your love life this month.  It is time to make decisions that you have been putting off.  Expect to reunite with someone from your past at the months end.  A and a Capricorn will play a role in your life this month.